The more sermons I prepare the more unprepared I feel to speak to people about God. Every time I write a sermon I feel more and more uncertain and yet I'm still doing it. This is a good thing I suppose. There really is nothing like it...preaching; it is frightening and exhilarating and I am really trying to get out of the way and let His word be heard. Still...it is a disconcerting thing to speak about that which you feel you know less and less. Particularly since the trick to confident public speaking is talking about what you know.

 

I know nothing of God.

 

Less and less each day.

 

How is it that there is even a calling to present the unfathomable infinite God to finite people in human language that cannot begin to scratch the surface of who He is? Yet the calling is there nonetheless and I have to trust that He knows what He's doing when He asks us to do these things.

 

I worry sometimes that the hypocrisy will shine through like a spotlight in my sermons. Many people see truth for what it is. They see truth in fragments in themselves and others; they see truth in the world and through truth they see God and communicate these truths about God to others. Some of us see truth in its absence. I think I am that way. I see the absence of truth and know that by its very absence it must exist. I look into myself and see all that I am not and know therefore all that God wants me to be - then I present that to others...in poems, in sermons, etc.

 

Well - I am getting too philosophical for my own good. It must be late and I must be tired. Thanks for listening. :-)